Shoshona Merow | Civilian | Female

[Shoshona Merow]

When no one's wearing their real face, it's a white-out of emotion,
And I've only got my brittle bones to break the fall

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Name - Shoshona Merow
Alias - Sho
Gender - Female
Age - 24
Sexuality - Heterosexual
Shift - Black Leopard
Model - Olivia Wilde
Player - Wolfy

And then we're caught up in the arms race on involuntary addiction,
And we're shedding every value our mothers taught.

Alliance - CItizen
Rank - n/a
Degree - High School education
Job - Retail/Local shop worker

When the loving letters fade, it's like moving in slow-motion,
And we're already too late if we arrive at all

Height - 5'7 in
Weight - 134 lb
Build - Toned with lots of muscle in her long legs, derived from her Leopard shift.
Hair - A darker than average brunette, Shoshona's hair is often mistaken for a dark ebony. Her hair is thick, layered and full of many different shades of brown.
Eyes - A brilliant lilac hue.
Ethnicity - American, Scottish
Shift - The leopard is one of the smallest of the four big cats. She is of a melanistic coloration which is common among leopards. However even the black coloration cannot hide all of her spots. They vaguely show on her flank and trail down her back up onto the tip of her tail.
Accent - n/a
Apparel - 'The here I am' kind of appearance. She is flashy with her clothes and enjoys wearing darker shirts contrasted with vibrant colors. That you can help but look at. While at the same time she enjoys wearing wilder clothes she tries to stay clean and professional. Nothing to outlandish or revealing. Her wardrobe is a good mixture of clothes that show her style but with class.
Other - Pierced ears and studded white nostril piercing
Accessories - n/a

So will you please show me your real face, Draw the line in the horizon,
'Cause I only need your name to call the reasons why I fought.

Parents -
Ceana Merow | Mother | Alive | Age- 42
Johnson 'Jon' Brown | Father | Died at age 59 from a heart attack | Age- 59
Siblings -
Braddock Brown | Half Brother - Father's side | Alive | Age- 30
Sierra Brown | Half Sister - Father's side | Alive | Age- 23
Jason Brown | Step Brother - Father's side | Alive | Age- 25
History - It all started when a young Ceana Merow and Jon Brown met at a local dive bar. Ceana at the time was 21, a partial alcoholic who loved to have fun. Jon was a wanna-be badass who loved boos, drugs, and partying. He started the relationship as a one night stand that blew out of proportion. He stole, lied, cheated and snorted half the money he spent on drugs up his nose. Somewhere within the partying and madness Ceana wound up pregnant with her first child. She was scared and thought of abortion but she went against the thought and had a beautiful baby girl at the end of the summer. The baby girl meant everything to Ceana when the reality of motherhood and her inner maternal feelings came out of the darkness. The child she would know and love for years on changed her lifestyle and was a blessing. However Shoshona was far from a blessing for Jon. He didn't personally despise the child but it was the last thing he'd wanted in his life. Regret was all he felt and throughout the years Shoshona was a child. He continuously neglected her and fed his addicting habit. He tore out her heart and left her in pain when she tried doing anything with him. She was a mistake, ugly, unwanted, a bump in the night. She came to believe it and throughout the years a strong hatred for her father grew inside her. Meanwhile a strong connection between mother and daughter grew.

By the time she was twelve she had obtained an unhealthy eating habit and became overweight. From twelve to fifteen she was bullied continuously by the kids in school, leading her to think about suicide. But somewhere within the storm raging inside she went against it and found some kind of motivation. She started working out more, gaining self confidence and feeling better about herself. During this time her father also had quit his drug and moved on with his life. He was apologetic to Shoshona but she was hesitant to accept it. For all the years he thought a pathetic 'I'm sorry' would fix the damage he'd done to her emotionally and mentally. She was past being daddy's little girl and had more things in her life to worry about.Whether it be going to work, going to school, dealing with bullies and everything in between. She was past the age and honestly didn't want to reestablish a relationship with her father.

Later when he died of a heart attack Shoshona was very regretful and wished he could've been the father she'd always wanted. But another side of her was glad he was dead. He was out of her life, causing less strife and stress. Ceana handled his death fairly but was regretful of her actions. But both Shoshona and Ceana accepted that they couldn't undo the past.

At the age of twenty four Shoshona moved out of her mothers house and decided to find a life in a strange place called Urbs. So far her life as been decent but now she aspires to work in the FBI as a field agent to help figure out whats going on.
Personality -
Extremely defensive and cautious. Keen senses from her leopard form seem to come out. Shoshona isn't one to trust someone right away. She will look them over, make a hundred assumptions ( bad ones at that ) and pray to god that none of them are true. Some people think she's very perspective but it's not so much perception as it is common sense.

If you pass her judgement personality wise and morally wise then your good to go. Shoshona really isn't the type of girl to judge you to your face unless she knows you enough or otherwise feels strongly about a certain subject. She also isn't the type of person to hate against someone for a stupid reason without giving that said person a fair chance. She is tolerant of many things even if they annoy her to the point of no return. As long as you don't hurt her, or anyone she cares about then she really doesn't care what you do.

Well, that's a lie. She does care - alot. If there was any person with a huge conscious it'd be Shoshona. She feels bad about the stupidest things but holds alot of it inside. And when there is just to much inside that she can't handle anymore she'll let it out in two ways. Bitching or crying- mostly crying though.

If you look past her overly opinionated attitude, constant displeasure, hypocrisy, cautiousness, and especially bitchiness then you'll get to see the person she really is. She is kind to those that don't treat her like shit, spiteful and a complete pistol to those she hates, and protective and loving to those she loves. Shoshona all in all is an accepting girl with a list of morals she holds close to her heart. Mainly with good intentions and opinions that get over looked by many people who don't give her the time of day.

Strengths -

• Stubbornness
  
• Strong moral standing
  
• Protective
  
• Accepting
  

Weaknesses -

• Overly opinionated
  
• Defensive
  
• Extremely judgmental
  
• Extremely cautous
  

Fears -

• Suffocation
  
• Drowning
  
• Centipedes/millipedes
  
• Falling
  

Habits -

• She has a habit of cussing and swearing underneath her breath at people she isn't fond of. Even if she hasn't even met them.
  

Skills -

• Nothing really but some say that her extreme judgement and caution of people could help her out in the long run. However she has yet to figure out how.
  

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